I know that some of you never write sad blog posts. You're always "crushing" your workouts, and it seems many of you have been breaking PR's and really stepping it up lately. I'm happy for you, I really am. But right now, I just don't give a shit.
My training isn't going as well. I'm working hard, but it feels like my body is hardly working. I'm slowing down every time I run. My sub 30min 5k's are now 31 minutes. My 10min/mile long runs have dropped to 11min/mile. I'm hurting in places I've never hurt before. And I'm very very discouraged.
Now, that's not saying that I haven't made any improvements. I've upped my mileage a lot. Last week, I did my first 15-miler and I broke into the 30miles/week category. So I'm working hard and seeing advancements in distance. But the rest of it kinda just feels like it's falling away. I honestly can say that this is the first week that I've felt that I *may* not be able to complete my marathon. I actually feel a bit like giving up. I give up on a lot of things, so this wouldn't be that different. Except that I've proudly crammed my few accomplishments and goals into the faces of all my internet community. So I guess I keep trucking and hope not to break down in the near future.
Maybe some of it is because of the move and lack of friends. Maybe it's the extra stress on my body from upped mileage. Maybe it's that I'm finally watching what I eat and drinking less alcohol. Whatever it is, I'm just not a big fan of it and I'm ready to stop slowing down and feeling achy.
I'm trying a few things to help "mix it up." My PiYo certification is on Sunday, which is hugely exciting and can hopefully take me out of my slump. I started doing interval training, 200's first and moving up to 400's when I'm not such a wimp. I'm drinking protein shakes for breakfast, cutting back on caffeine, upping water, and eating less junk food. I'm seeing noticeable differences in my body, at least. My legs just aren't moving as fast or as happy.
So this is where you guys come in. Those of you who have trained above a half marathon--is this normal? Do things tend to stagnate in the middle? Or am I doing something wrong?? I'm so tired of hearing how running is just rainbows and butterflies in the blogger world lately, I'd really like to know that others have to weather the storms at times too.
I'll use this afternoon and the amazing warmth and sunshine to try to find some running zen. It won't be easy while pushing two kids and stopping at duck ponds constantly, but I'll do my darndest. Let's cross our fingers that it works out a little, and that my weekend full of houseguests and PiYo training gets me on a new track to marathon-dom.